by: dennis
edited: author’s sister
a journey begins today. a series of twelve posts. over the next twelve weeks.
about God. life. the Scriptures. Yeshua. the past/present/future. addiction to freedom. torment to peace. pain to wholeness.
everything about God clicked this year in January. that I have a personal relationship with Him. that I can submit to Him and His authority. and this changed everything for me. I’m not here on this earth to have an abstract and distant relationship with God but instead an up close and personal one. He is my God, Yeshua is my Savior. no one can take that away from me. this is no longer theory, but reality. a reality so real that cannot be denied. His work is here and is present in my life. He longs to complete His work in you too, only if you will invite Him in and let Him.
being confident of this very thing, that He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ;
He has so much in store for you, His thoughts towards you are innumerable.
Many, O Lord my God, are Your wonderful works which You have done; and Your thoughts toward us cannot be recounted to You in order; if I would declare and speak of them, they are more than can be numbered.
I had been struggling with sin. for a long time. but before I get into that, let me share my salvation story. I accepted Yeshua as my personal Savior as a child when I was 9 years old. I will never forget the moment when I saw light from the far upper left side, as if it came down from heaven to my heart. I believe I have been sealed since that day. I have felt the presence of the Holy Spirit in my life since then. He has never left me, nor forsaken me. even through all the times I have grieved Him. all of this sin against Him, it pains me, so deeply. oh how could He love me still, but He does. I am forever grateful that He does not give up. He is unrelenting in His pursuit. He does not give up. He will not give up. His heart for you is indescribably good.
so to continue with the story. I was an innocent kid, carefree, until that changed one day. I discovered something online that confused me, enraptured me, and took hold of my attention. an innocent search for motorcycles when I was 12 and a half didn’t just yield results of motorcycles, but also motorcycles with immodestly dressed women sitting on them. I lost my innocence about the world on this day. I knew I had discovered something. I could not quite understand what was so captivating about it. All I knew is I wanted more of it. More, yes, why, unsure.
I was clueless. what did I know, I was just a kid. was I gonna talk about it? would I tell someone? who was going to explain this to me? where were the safeguards that I needed? where were the warnings?
warnings? well, about that. I had one warning that I will never forget. I remember sitting in the chair in the living room and thinking about doing another search. and in my spirit I felt God say, don’t do it. it was so clear, so unmistakable. and I made a decision there. a decision to say, I will disobey and I will push this voice down in my heart as far as I can. I knew I couldn’t get rid of Him. He has always been there all these years. always reaching out to me. always convicting me. always saddened and grieved by my sin against Him. The Holy Spirit was looking out for me and He hoped that I would obey. I didn’t quite understand obedience to God at this point in my life and its importance. I didn’t understand how God was giving me power to overcome temptation. I didn’t understand how God was providing me a way to escape temptation. I just didn’t understand. Oh, what if I had obeyed His voice then. but there is only so much you can ponder on. the what if’s, they’re a never-ending road, with little gain, if any.
these are the beginnings of my 17-year struggle with pornography. and my struggle with my faith. my struggle with doubt. my struggle with unforgiveness. but freedom does come. forgiveness happens. confessions begets freedom. God gives hope through Messiah Yeshua.
there is more to share over the next several weeks. different stories. different struggles. same problem. same solution.
this is a road you are welcome to join me on as I share my thoughts and my hope is that you will find encouragement and freedom that is only found in Messiah. there is no other who can do this for you. Yeshua is the way, the truth and the life.
Jesus said to him, “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me.”
may all this bring glory to God, lead people to Yeshua the Messiah, in whom is our hope and salvation.
This hope we have as an anchor of the soul, both sure and steadfast, and which enters the Presence behind the veil,
that if you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you will be saved.
thank you for joining me here today and may you draw near to God and be filled with His love. be blessed.
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